Memories

Some people think that having a fabulous memory is a good thing. But I'm here to tell those pple that you are totally WRONG! Why? Because memories exist as good and bad,which means you dun have a choice to choose the memories that u wanna keep. Today was a very good example. I wasnt feeling very good in the early hours of the night,so I msged my cell leader to get my cell to pray. Problem was when I said cell,I meant the cell that existed b4 we split abt a mth back,so we had a lil conflict abt that bcos I had forgotten/remembered(delete where necessary) that our cell was no longer 2gether/that we had multiplied(Again,delete where necessary). Then my head started aching bcos everything was being remembered at once. Another example would be last sat, where aft YES 5(which I wasnt there for), I gave Ronald a ring(After I rang Kok Hong) to ask whether I cld join them for dinner at church(I found out that they decided to go to Mc's at Japanese Garden instead). Phileo was back together! Again I had forgotten til I realized that nth abt Phileo was mentioned thruout the time I was there! Ben's qn(So wht's ur new cell name?) suddenly made me remember that we were no longer 2gether anymore(as a cell). And it felt weird.

During these past 2 weeks,I realized tt old memories were flooding back, some good some bad but irregardless they still gave me a headache(those lapses always do)

I was playing Final Fantasy Tactics Advance,and as some that play the game might know,everytime a crystal is destroyed,Part of Mewt's old memories return and most of them are painful.

So pple out there who still think that having a good memory is a good thing,please also think about wht comes along with that. Bcos,Reality is,there are definitely some things that a person wants to forget but cant. For those who can, they are the few "lucky" ones.

The End

Typing this made me realize that this is my longest post yet.

haha

The match where everything went wrong

today was a relatively good day overall.I would like to once more thank kok hong and ronald for taking the time to come down to see the team play even tho i didnt actually play. today we lost. but the big talking point was that my coach wanted to play. Apparently he's an offically registered player but,nevertheless the other team's coach wasnt happy. But the good thing was,ALL the players were,even those on the other end.

Waiting for my next game which comes in 2 weeks(16 Aug)

Hopefully i will be able to play by then

As I finish typing this. I realize its half past midnight.
goodnight world!

haha

Reflection

As I reflect on what has happened this last few days, i realized a few things.
In this world,there are 3 groups of people you must never get in conflict with. They are your leaders,bosses and your friends. But now as i look back,there are sometimes when i feel regretful bcos some friendships/relationships can never be repaired after they have been broken(ever...)
For me, it's more on the friendship side,but you or myself for that matter may never know how things can turn out.

I also realized that this has been my 3rd post in a week. Just half the total of all posts last year.
Maybe i will end up going into double figures this year. haha.

Confused

Spoke to the"boss" yesterday and it turns out everything i was thinking about and assuming was juz a huge miscommunication. But i have a problem.Now juz when i thot i cld have peace from the issue,it's exactly the opposite.

o man!

I have another name(in addition to my current one)

Quite a while back,I found out that my mum wanted to name me Issac but she read her bible wrong and thot if she did then she would have 2 sacrifice me or something,so she named me Ivan instead. That left me wondering,how different would my life be if my name was Issac? Well O dun have an answer to that but now I have added a unofficial middle name 2 my full name. It used to juz be Ivan Lim,now pple can start calling me Ivan Issac. Hehe. But pls, juz Ivan will be fine.

I'm back to work after slacking for almost half a year, and for the 1st time in my 1st 10 days i actually feel stressed. Can u believe that? Stress for a person who has been doing close to nth for the past 5-6 mths!

So sian! Stressed at work but suddenly i find hm so boring. A place that has been my nest/shell is suddenly boring. Even i'm surprised.

Life is so strange!

In love(again?)

I think I'm in love. I think of her every night and remember how much I missed her when she was away. I told her I cloudn't sleep bcos I was thinking.... so she asked what I was thinking about and I juz stoned. I mean... how do u expect me 2 say(I cldnt slp bcos I was thinking abt u) Besides I think she oredi has some1 else.
What 2 do?

O God what to do?

confused and sleepless nights

(thinking of u always)

the kind of sickness I would get"once in 10years"

8 May

Had a fever 2day but I didnt know until in class.Jie said this was the kind of sickness I would get"once in 10years" Mum granted me a 1 day break.

9 May

2day has not been good, highest temp 39.6.keep sweating oso.

5plus

the thermometer is screwed,cant measure my temp properly,still sweating plus bodyaches ,even when coughing:(. went to the clinic at 11 pm plus.

11plus

Finally got my temp right(38 degrees). Doc gives me medicine plus a whole bunch of vitamin c tabs to suck. Plus 2 days of mc til friday

Saturday

Not going 2 British Council 2day but still sweating lyk crazy n the sweat is dry too.???
The temp has went down though.Thank God.

My official first days at SPD

25 April

Today was my second day as an employee at the Society for the Physically Disabled (Singapore)(SPD).1st 2 days veri lil stress but still very tiring...

This is it 4 2day

Hope all u guys out there had a terrific day!:)

A prince in God's palace

15 April

Yesterday I was baptised:) and now im truly happy bcos something that i tried to dodge 4 sooooooooooo looooooooooooong has finally been done.And I have peace now noeing that my place is secure in the kingdom of God.:)

I noe a change is coming but dunno when.But still waiting paitently.

Epilepsy strikes again:(

9th Feb

It's going to be short today.

Today I had a fit(Readers,I have epilepsy).Not feelng very good.

Hooray!

7 Feb

The hiccups are really gone! But I still have problems eating and drinking. everytime i do so,throat so pain im yelling blue murder.What's more,everytime I drink,my back aches.My sis says maybe it's flu.

Hiccups

5-6Feb

Monday

Same like any other day.

11:00pm

O man , 1 hour of hiccups and it hasnt stopped

Tuesday

Still hiccupping like crazy,wonder whether I have a bunny inside me.
Mum help me!(in the end she says"Ivan drink warm water".)
My reply?
Doesn't work lah
So she buys Vapodrops.


God help me! hiccups are not going nowhere.

8pm

Dad passes me something that says"look at the screen,whem the 2 blocks reach each other, your hics are gone".
I try it....

Thank God.No more hics

9pm

Oh no!the hiccups are back

11pm

The hics are gone again,I hope they leave for good.