Tuesday, 2 December 2008

Tribute to the church

As the year comes to an end(13 days to my doc's appointment,23 days to Christmas,26 days to camp) and 29 days to January 2009, I would like to use this time, and post my public thanks to,

In no particular order:

Have helped me to understand the Bible better(Rachel and Gim Yong)

As a group helped me to adapt to church, and bearing with me and all my c**p(Phileo)

The whole youth ministry's pastors and leaders.

My cell leaders(former and current) Seah and Kok Hong for helping me adapt to cell

a person i consider a very good friend(am i even worthy?) that i can open my heart to to a certain extent: Jasmin(thanks for lending a ear to all my grouses), a friend that always seems to be there when i need one.

to all who have remembered me when I returned after 2 years away.(Moses,Zachary and many others, you know who you are), up to now i apologize that i do not know some of you who know me.

To all who made my camp life as comfortable as possible(I didnt how to appreciate one of the best rooms in the nus campus):(

And to all who i have left uncredited, I apologize.(too many of u lah)

Thank you all for helping me to live in church a life as normal as possible.

Last and Most of all.


Monday, 29 September 2008

Roundup of the closing of Sep.

As Sep closes, this mth will b remembered 4 me:

1.having 2 attacks in 3 weeks

2. having my left hand jammed in between 2 auto doors.

3.managing 2 get my right index finger n left middle finger(at diff times but at the same place within 24 hrs of each other) injured bcos i knocked into a plastic hanger by accident at my house.( btw,i juz hit it lightly).

4. getting more sensitive 2 sounds n movements(I'm remedying that tho. Thank God.)

5. knowing my limits and (sometimes) trying 2 break them, but rarely successful.

6. going on a comments spree on facebook.

And finally, realizing how screwed up my life is and moving(slowly)but still moving 2 change that as well.

Closing notes: A few days ago,my mum read 2 me a book by Pastor Henry W. Wright. Of cos she didnt read thewhole thing,but anyway, after she read it, I saw this words which i believe were from God(Pharaoh,Moses,The Ten Plagues and Hardened Heart.) KH told me his interpretation of these words,but if any1 out there would like enlighten me more wif their interpretation, go ahead n do so in the"comments" section.


Wednesday, 24 September 2008

Roundup of the "major" events for "the week that was" 15 Sep-20 Sep

Tuesday 16 Sep

Went 2 c the doc. The visit was a lil longer this time. Keppra was eased off bcos of the(possible) aggravation of the side effects that i had suffered for so long. Added on Clobazam,also known as Frisium(I cun find it anywhere on Drugs.com) Apparently its a banned drugs in certain countries.


Went back 2 office 2day. Feeling that the med withdrawal actually works but Frisium doesnt really help much.


Went for prayer walk arnd SPD and grace's sch(La'salles). wun really elaborate bcos there were certain sensitive issues brought up. Hung arnd grace's place till abt 530,then kh drove the grp 2 church. He cldnt go bcos of a prior appointment.

It was Baptism svc and being there alone reminded me of what happened during my own baptism last yr. That nite was pretty amusing.

Pastor Michael Ross Watson Rocks! He shld try out writing songs 4 da church. He preached using Revelations 1. Was surprised 2 know that he ever rode a motorbike and played football wif his best pants on. "Son of the King".He sure deserves that title 4 all that he has done in his life n others'.

Went 4 dinner ltr on. Officially separated from ben's side. So sad. He cldnt accept the word "separate" so I had 2 use "individualise" instead.

Today I saw leonard(joe's bro) smile for the 1st time. It wasnt flashy but was a solid straight smile. After dinner, joe,leonard n i chatted 4 quite awhile abt computers and stuff, was a very interesting conversation.

As we were abt 2 finish up n leave, ronald voiced that he "cldnt say anything" bcos he didnt know much abt comps,juz abt how 2 use them. It reminded me of the feeling that i felt as well previously(sometimes still feel it) that every1 was in sch but i wasnt, so they had common topics 2 talk abt,while i juz stoned over at my seat.

It made me realize how sometimes pple can feel so left out, after all I 've gone thru it b4. My consolation 2 ronald was there if every1 knew their computers inside out, comps technicians wld b out of a job. Dunno whether that was really much of a consolation tho.

Friday, 19 September 2008

Roundup(8-14 Sept)

Monday and Tuesday

Went 2 work as per normal. IC3 classes have started End of story

Wednesday and Thursday

Took these 2 days off End of story


Pulai Springs here I come! Off again 2day but its bcos im going on a prearranged family holiday. There were supposed 2 be 28 of us but 2 of the families couldnt make it(4+4). so all available members went.(by coach too!).

Hit the meeting place abt 12 with uncle harry n family. My dad insisted on opening the shop so he remained bhind n came later,so did my mum. My sis cld have cum wif us but nt enuff space in the cab,haha. We left 4 the resort at abt 215.

Went by Second Link,so there wasnt much hassle getting thru customs. Maybe I wasnt used 2 it or something but i started feeling ill(no, not fever but maybe flu,bottomline,not physical aliments). Hit the resort abt 4pm and napped til abt 6.

Dinner destination was supp 2 b some chinese restaurant famous 4 their peking duck n they said we didnt need 2 book in advance 2. But when we reached there, there was oredi a prior booking 4 a wedding. sian.(advice 2 pple out there,next time book 1st 2 make sure that u have ur places secured,even if they said there's no need 2 book).

Anyway they told us that we could sit outside,but hey,who in the right mind wld wanna sit outside when u cld b inside enjoying the aircon. My godma(the transport ic) was pretty upset and no wonder. Eventually they spotted this mall called Sutera n decided 2 try there.

My mum(who was the treater of dinner for the day) managed 2 find this japanese resturant n we were designated a small room. Skipping the food details, all the food bar one type was worth the cash. And 2 think that it was the "Recommendation of the day". We(especially my nephew Kenzie),wanted soft shell crab but we were recommended 2 have mini crabs, which on 1st sight cld have looked like something out of a kid's toy box. The 2nd worst part? They were totally tasteless. The worst part? for an order of 15 of those, it cost 75 ringgits!(for those math whizs,it means 5 ringgits per piece,or abt 2-3 bucks Sing dollars). Kenzie was so upset abt nt getting the soft shell crabs that he hardly ate any more after that. The bill totalled 787 ringgits or abt 350-400 Sing dollars which isnt actually very costly 4 a 20-person meal, but cld have been cheaper if not 4 the crabs.

We separated 4 shopping time after that and at about 930 left the mall. Played abit more of Taboo(game similar 2 charades) n then retired 2 the individual family rooms(Uncle Harry n my family had 2-room suites while my cuzins n godparents stayed in a 4-room 2gether(in case u wanted 2 know y, its bcos thats was an very gd offer on the 4-rooms, Also 4 those who dunno how 2 read a family tree,haha,my godparents(they r my auntie n uncle actually, but i dun call them that) r the parents of my cuzins n the grandparents of my nephew n nieces).

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Sunday, 7 September 2008

Review :1 Sep-7 Sep

What a week!
1 Sep

Today I went 2 work as per normal. End of story

2-5 Sep


2day I took the day off bcos wasnt feeling 2 well. Nth much 2 say.


Off again 2day and I was 2 find out that it was the right choice. Had a seizure after i slipped on the wet flr at hm at abt 9pm. Ran on abt 8 mins according 2 dad. I realized that i was pretty scared of almost everything arnd me n the fear was 1 of the factors that caused it.


Due 2 the fit,I took tis 2 days off. Fear was still there but i felt better. At least I didnt feel crying
wrenching pain. Yes my head was that painful. I have had post-fit headaches but this was the 1st time i cried bcos of it.


I hit church abt 330 2day. Cell was quite messy 2day n pretty much stop-start. I screwed up n nearly didnt have anything 2 eat b4 9. I dunno what i was thinking then,but when i felt i cldnt go 4 communion,I told joe 2 do it in proxy 4 me. (Sorry joe 4 putting u in a spot n it was ur 1st time too.)I went 2 take it anyway. Super freaked that i wld drop halfway thru but Thank God I didnt. When the svc ended, Ronald went up 4 altar-call n aft advice frm ben's side(cant believe i still call them that.), the cell decided 2 go in force 2 support him. I still wasnt feeling 2 well but i went anyway. When u go 2 bless pple,usually u wanna spread the gd omens 2 others but in my case,all i felt was freakin' fear. Look at it tis way, my turn at altar-call came aft him even tho i didnt go 4 it. I was extremely subdued and onli managed 2 squeeze out the basic words like:(follow me,say this so i followed. It was after much hesitation, i muz add) n didnt say anything much else.

On a final note I wld like 2 thank all members of the ex phileo 4 all they did last sat,including delaying their dinner. I admit that I may need help again in the future n u r always there. Thanx guys.

Muz oso remind myself 2 look up. Problem is, the only way i can actually look up without "force" is when im on my bed staring at the ceiling(when i lie down have 2 bend head to look at feet ma) Muz learn 2 do more of the same standing up.



Im still freaked, unable 2 do anything at work. Hopefully i will feel btr when i go 2 pulai springs starting fri-mon.

" they say at weddings" i give u this ring as a pledge of my love" Fortunately for Christians,we dunnit a ring,juz a pledge"

Thursday, 28 August 2008

I have a dream.....


What a strange thing!

Some pple believe in them but some don't. Some even scoff at the thot of others having dreams,but can they truthfully say that they they haven't had a single dream in their life? Unless that person is a day old of cos, then they can say so.

Some pple believe that dreams happen when ur subconciousness take over,most of the time when u r slping. The dreams r images of ur innermost thots,some that u nvr thot u had. Others believe that a certain dream that u had cld bcos that person is thinking of u. Still there r some that believe that dreams r the opposite of reality. That one i acccept bcos that is no argument 2 b made. But i think the 1st theory is more applicable. I dare say that i have dreamt of a lot of "stars", sports and tv personalities. Does that means they are thinking of me? i dun think so.:)

However the dreams i have been having these past 2-3 wks have led me
to believe that some claims made by pple in the papers may be more true than false.

Like a few days ago when tnp(The New Paper) reported that in parts of malaysia, residents(usually the older ones) claim that they found pure gold. 1 of them even claimed 2 have dreamed of that location, and i believe him.

Recently i have had dreams of scenes that would make a good script on a tv show.Masked Rider Ryuki anyone? Or a drama? The scenario? I dreamt of a family. The father was a hourly paid worker while the mother stayed by her son's side. The son was heavily sick. Always in hospital. One day after he(the father) visited his son,the minute he stepped out of the ward,he slumped to the floor and started crying bcos he knew that money had run dry paying 4 the hospital bills.

He remembered always quarreling wif his wife bcos there was no money and he felt that she shld go get a job and also felt that she was focusing on their son 2 much. The mother on the other hand felt that putting her's son welfare was much more impt than any other thing.

The dreams aside, I have always thot that as the points of others abt dreams are valid(not 2 say that i believe all of it) I wld like 2 add a few of my own.

I 4 1 believe that ur environment and what u do daily also affects what u dream abt at nite.

One example, Power Rangers was(and still is) one of my fav shows of all time. I used to watch and rewatch n rewatch and rewind the vcds i had nonstop(up to a point my family got irritated) and then at nite i wld dream that i was one of them. bcos i cldnt stop thinking abt them.

Up to now, almost daily i wld hum the MMPR theme silently(even now as im typing this,can u believe that im thinking abt MMPR now?)

It's nearly 1am now and im off 2 bed. Sayonara, oyasumi( gd nite)

Maybe I will have dreams again 2nite, but that's another story

Til then gd bye and gdnite

Sunday, 24 August 2008

Control. and my way of management.

This week everything at work was as per normal but then the flashbacks i had last mth came back again. Yesterday I had it so hard that I had such a bad headache all way thru the nite til abt 3 am when i slept.

Sometimes I ask myself y im having this flashbacks but then there's isnt really anything to think abt at all. My way to handle headaches is very unconventional. Playing video games to distract myself frm pain is my way,same with the dizzy spells that im having.

When I tell pple how i feel then obviously its hard to believe. its the same when i told boss(kh) that i could tell whether he was sick by looking at his hair. I know that having these are a knack not a gift. Just like telling the weather. Thats y this sucks! Sometimes its laziness but sometime even I cant tell the diff myself. Also yesterday I was going on 1 on my tirades again. When I look back, at least it was 4 amusement. I know sometimes this think isnt christianlike but today I was wondering(again) y I wasnt going thru 1 of my screaming and swearing moments. Ever since I went to secondary school, i was exposed to the world of cussing and swearing and 4 a while I did cuss and swear think it was right. 1 of my worst moments was when i spewed a vulgarity in front of my nephew 5 years ago when he was juz 7.

When I ask pple 4 advice on how 2 relive stress and pressure,most of the time its to scream out as loud as possible to release all of it but when i try to do it in my "normal" non agitated state,I cant seem to bring the power out but when I was quarreling with my mum a while back then its juz came out then I started screaming til I had no more energy. That's y im surprised abt how much im able to control myself now compared to last time and sometimes I even ask myself whether i shld control.

Another qn i've been asking myself is when I look at pple at say"have u gone nuts?" I ask myself whether im actually the 1 losing it.

Saturday, 16 August 2008

week(11-15 Aug) recap

11,12 Aug

These 2 days was as per normal at work except i was having splitting headaches and dizzy spells
and also having funny dreams at night(tv commercial abt saving water bcos singapore was running out,A big dog and the modern day prodigal son) Go figure.

13-14 Aug

These 2 days I took off. splitting headaches and dizzy spells still lingered. but at least no more funny dreams.

15 Aug

Went back 2 work 2day. Finally managed to finish my vlookup assignments after figuring out the "trick". 2day 2 new trialists came in 4 assessments bring the number of trialist 2 3 in the week.
Went 4 jpl prayer meeting at 7 n no regrets going there altho i was stoning 4 most of the time.

I think the turning point(wake up call) 4 me was when suddenly there was a blackout. at 1st i thot it was intentional bcos at that time ps jenn was talkin abt being "lights" in the darkness but she believed otherwise. Also I found out 2 weeks ago that there was also a blackout when the biblical studies program class was in progress,so whether the blackout was an accident or was God involved is still a mystery.

Sunday, 10 August 2008

When do we not fear God?

Saturday 9 August(National Day)

Today I woke up at half past 1(1.30pm for those who prefer numbers).
At 2.45 I left hm with family for church. Hit church arnd 3.05.

Chris was there doing guitar despite his broken shoulder. Talk abt dedication. Worship was a lil extended 2day. But in my view, time doesn't matter when u r in sync with God. cell session was a recap on the 5Es session we did last week. Early on,there was a brainstorming sessionon how 2 improve on our last E,which was Evangalism. there were a total of 11 points for improvement that we managed to find after which we had 2 compact it to 5 points which were as follows:
1.Willingly follow God
2.To know God intimately
4.Die to self
5.The Great Commission

Apart from the last point,i think the other r easily understood.

Moving on...

Last part of cell was to reflect on the times when we dont fear God and it was harder 2 do than I thot. But I managed to scrape two out of which one i will elaborate on.
I realized that I dont fear God when I tell white("good") lies.
I know that the bracketed words look ridiculous but its true.

I believed that if u lie without causing any trouble then it wld b fine and that those lies would be considered "good" and I know that its a mentality I will have to change.

Sometimes when I want 2 dodge a topic or dun wanna drag it on,then I will unconciously lie,and that is despite the fact that a lot of pple have told me that im very honest with what i say.(I think what they really mean is that im very open-minded)

I was also very hesitant when we went onto the topic of accountability bcos in my case I believed (and still do) that there r some things u need 2 handle alone.

Friday, 8 August 2008

recap(4-8 aug) part 2

part 2 of my recap

Due to tuesday's incident I decided that i wld take another day off. nothing much to say except that i was really slack on that day.


Today I went to see the new doc at sgh,and it turned out to be one of my shortest 1st visits ever to a doc.

A sample of what we talked about:

Doc: So Ivan,any fits since discharge?
*(I was admitted for fits on the 29th of june and discharged a few days later)

Me: no.

D:any fits in july?


D:Good,then let stick to what u have been taking


And then he prescribed FOUR month's worth of medication. Was really surprised bcos usually my docs' visits are once a mth. Anyway after taking lunch and medicine from the pharmacy and then seeing the social worker,my mum and I left the hosp.

On the way hm I wasnt feeling 2 well but managed to get there anyway:)

My dad and mum then went for her pre-birthday dinner hosted by the cell( btw,parents' cell not mine)

I wasnt shortchanged either on what i was going to eat as i would soon find out when Jie came back abt 8-9. She had bought a box of sushi!(8pcs for 3.50) yoz! usually I dun eat sushi so often(I had mine last abt a week ago)but I took a share anyway,half of the box! no kidding.The cheapest and the best sushi I've ever eaten in my life!(well at least till my next one anyway haha.)

The end

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I know this seems 2 be a very boring blog but I want 2 know how pple view my life.

Many thanks to those who have read it and also to those who will.


recap(4-8 aug) part 1

When I read my blog over i realized that i had gone over double figs oredi and its only august

Record-breaker man!

So another recap coming up


I went to work as per norm so not much to say really... except I was told again that i shld work faster


Took a day off bcos i was a lil down over my supp's comments abt my workrate. went arnd the net and msn 4 advice on how 2 improve in that aspect.
After awhile i lost interest so i decided to slack. At abt 8 i left for ry's pl 4 seah's birthday(kh said no dress code so instead i chose by colour,went all black.)

Didnt feel like eating when i reached there but ate some anyway. chatted abit with the cell(whole phileo was there wif exception of a few) and had some photos taken.

Towards the end I chatted with a few others and got 2 know a few more pple by name and some by face.

Arnd 10 after talking some more I started not to feel so well,unfortunately that was also when ronald decided to pop the balloons:( So it aggravated my condition a lil and i started feeling a fit coming on but thanks to prayer from ryan and the rest arnd and a lil(juz a lil) faith,once again it came it left immediately without manifesting(apart from some minor vibrations). Thank God. Nevertheless Ronald was very apologetic for his actions but I have since(and still will if needed)
reassured him that it wasnt his fault it happened.

Part 1 end.

Monday, 4 August 2008

Recap Part 3-2


this started a long discussion that lasted til abt the time cell ended, abt half hr.

However when cell ended I started having fear again(the fear came after the fit left,but didnt affect me so much)so I had to have benny and kh help me to church.After that they went for service while I went back to the car for a rest. I was encouraged to go back since I kept saying that I wasnt feeling well and sensitivity lvls were pretty high. But anyway I chose to rest in the veh and aft a while i went in 4 the remainder of svc since i was feeling a lil btr.

I didnt really focus on anything said during svc except the funny parts like the bike demo. If ps Jen could really "juz fall down and go to the hospital",i wld sure love to c that. I left svc immediately after it was over and went home.

I have decided not to recap sunday,so this is it.

The End


Note: for those pple who hate reading pls read 3-1 b4 u read this.

Recap Part 3-1

Saturday 2 August

I woke at lunchtime today after some pushing(literally) by my mum to get up. It's the wkend man. Let me slp!

Anyway so then i went to church arnd 2 plus. Ben Yuan was a visiting member 2day. Was surprised to see him there. we had some gd input frm him. Halfway thru worship,suddenly I felt a seizure coming. But thank God! It came n left b4 it cld manifest. A day to remember! Bcos this was only the second time it left wifout doing anything and unlike the 1st time it happened,this time i didnt even do anything(was juz on the ground resting). Cell was very helpful. They(grace continued playing the guitar,tho im sure she was praying in a way.) prayed and continued praying til i picked myself up. I was juz laughing and cldnt stop bcos i knew that something extraordinary had juz happened. God took control and it left. awhile later KH asked me whether i wanted a pillow bcos i told him i was tired. God provides,doesnt he? KH came back with not a pillow but something more like a BED. Talk abt Jehovah Jireh and this is the perfect example bcos i was overprovided with something which i didnt think i wld need but still had.
Soon after we did a "purpose of a cell" activity. I didnt write anything unlike the rest but I did some mouthwork. (yes I juz talked my way thru the whole thing,haha) anyway it turned out that our cell found out that Evangelism was the last thing that we were doing or even thinking of doing. Even Benny thot so based on his impressions.

Recap Part 2

Thursday 31th July

Today I went to work,but its not that simple bcos i knew if i didnt go today i probably wouldnt go the next day. I went, but did next to nth with the 2 hrs ispent at work,except after some fiddling arnd i managed to finish exercise 2 on vlookup. Up to now i still dunno how i did it.haha:)

at abt 4-5 plus i left office bcos again i wasnt feeling too well. Usually i stay overtime to slack in the a/c rm and spend time in front of the com there.

Friday 1 August

I didnt go to work 2day even tho i was well. Y? bcos i felt that my head needed some clearing up and i needed some time by myself. I also picked up my bible for the 1st time in like 2 yrs and started reading juz starting with Genesis,no particular reference.

Mr Yeo's bdae is 2day. Happy Birthday Dennis!

Recap Part 1

Today i will blog diff. instead of juz throwing in my feelings and thots,i will do a recap of the week started 28 July in 2 parts starting with Monday-Wednesday,then Thursday and Friday n then the weekend will be part 3.

So 28th July Monday.

today i went to work as per normal,but felt sick towards the end

I took a break these 2 days bcos of issues in the mind. Read my "Memories"entry to know more.

Nothing much happened these 2 days except i was struggling with memories flowing back over n over.

Monday, 28 July 2008


Some people think that having a fabulous memory is a good thing. But I'm here to tell those pple that you are totally WRONG! Why? Because memories exist as good and bad,which means you dun have a choice to choose the memories that u wanna keep. Today was a very good example. I wasnt feeling very good in the early hours of the night,so I msged my cell leader to get my cell to pray. Problem was when I said cell,I meant the cell that existed b4 we split abt a mth back,so we had a lil conflict abt that bcos I had forgotten/remembered(delete where necessary) that our cell was no longer 2gether/that we had multiplied(Again,delete where necessary). Then my head started aching bcos everything was being remembered at once. Another example would be last sat, where aft YES 5(which I wasnt there for), I gave Ronald a ring(After I rang Kok Hong) to ask whether I cld join them for dinner at church(I found out that they decided to go to Mc's at Japanese Garden instead). Phileo was back together! Again I had forgotten til I realized that nth abt Phileo was mentioned thruout the time I was there! Ben's qn(So wht's ur new cell name?) suddenly made me remember that we were no longer 2gether anymore(as a cell). And it felt weird.

During these past 2 weeks,I realized tt old memories were flooding back, some good some bad but irregardless they still gave me a headache(those lapses always do)

I was playing Final Fantasy Tactics Advance,and as some that play the game might know,everytime a crystal is destroyed,Part of Mewt's old memories return and most of them are painful.

So pple out there who still think that having a good memory is a good thing,please also think about wht comes along with that. Bcos,Reality is,there are definitely some things that a person wants to forget but cant. For those who can, they are the few "lucky" ones.

The End

Typing this made me realize that this is my longest post yet.


Sunday, 27 July 2008

The match where everything went wrong

today was a relatively good day overall.I would like to once more thank kok hong and ronald for taking the time to come down to see the team play even tho i didnt actually play. today we lost. but the big talking point was that my coach wanted to play. Apparently he's an offically registered player but,nevertheless the other team's coach wasnt happy. But the good thing was,ALL the players were,even those on the other end.

Waiting for my next game which comes in 2 weeks(16 Aug)

Hopefully i will be able to play by then

As I finish typing this. I realize its half past midnight.
goodnight world!


Tuesday, 22 July 2008


As I reflect on what has happened this last few days, i realized a few things.
In this world,there are 3 groups of people you must never get in conflict with. They are your leaders,bosses and your friends. But now as i look back,there are sometimes when i feel regretful bcos some friendships/relationships can never be repaired after they have been broken(ever...)
For me, it's more on the friendship side,but you or myself for that matter may never know how things can turn out.

I also realized that this has been my 3rd post in a week. Just half the total of all posts last year.
Maybe i will end up going into double figures this year. haha.

Monday, 21 July 2008


Spoke to the"boss" yesterday and it turns out everything i was thinking about and assuming was juz a huge miscommunication. But i have a problem.Now juz when i thot i cld have peace from the issue,it's exactly the opposite.

o man!

Wednesday, 16 July 2008

I have another name(in addition to my current one)

Quite a while back,I found out that my mum wanted to name me Issac but she read her bible wrong and thot if she did then she would have 2 sacrifice me or something,so she named me Ivan instead. That left me wondering,how different would my life be if my name was Issac? Well O dun have an answer to that but now I have added a unofficial middle name 2 my full name. It used to juz be Ivan Lim,now pple can start calling me Ivan Issac. Hehe. But pls, juz Ivan will be fine.

I'm back to work after slacking for almost half a year, and for the 1st time in my 1st 10 days i actually feel stressed. Can u believe that? Stress for a person who has been doing close to nth for the past 5-6 mths!

So sian! Stressed at work but suddenly i find hm so boring. A place that has been my nest/shell is suddenly boring. Even i'm surprised.

Life is so strange!

Friday, 9 May 2008

In love(again?)

I think I'm in love. I think of her every night and remember how much I missed her when she was away. I told her I cloudn't sleep bcos I was thinking.... so she asked what I was thinking about and I juz stoned. I mean... how do u expect me 2 say(I cldnt slp bcos I was thinking abt u) Besides I think she oredi has some1 else.
What 2 do?

O God what to do?

confused and sleepless nights

(thinking of u always)